I wanted to say
I love you.
I used to always ask my best friends
how they knew when they were in love
but with you,
I just somehow knew
and now I understand what it means
to wish to drown someone
yet save them at the same time.
I wanted to say it out loud
but I didn’t want you to think I was crazy
and I didn’t want to give you even more power
when you are on your way
to owning me.